Please be Kinder to YourselvesPlease be Kinder to Yourselves
If there’s anything I have to admit, it’s that TikTok actually makes me feel.. Happy? It makes me feel connected and part of something, the subgoal of social media that the marketers claim that they try to achieve, but it actually does make me feel connected to people I will probably never meet in my life. I see people talk about niche topics that I had little to no idea about to things I know a whole lot about (I retired from being a gatekeeper though), people talking about their personal life experiences, and others trying to help others. I’ve seen things that I can never see anywhere else on that app, despite its huge flaws.
Despite all of the positives though, it’s so easy to fall into a negative mindset when you see people receive opportunities that you could never imagine receiving. It’s easy to project onto others that are in a similar situation to you and it reminds you of your inner self worth, but in reality, it’s not you and it’s someone else merely similar to you achieving something that you really desire. It can be really hurtful seeing that repeatedly.
I honestly feel desensitized to this, to be honest. I’m in the middle of just tapping “not interested” despite how relevant it is to my current desires and goals right now, to hoping the best for that individual and feeling happy for them.
It’s easy to loathe someone because they have something you don’t but if you’re going to stop reading now, the one thing I want you to walk away with is to please be kinder to yourself. People are achieving those things because they will it to be, in whichever way that makes it possible. Sure, some people may have it “easier” with supportive friends and family but depression is a weapon that misses nobody.
Try to look for the good besides the bad for once, think about yourself and what you need to achieve that goal for yourself. Don’t lose yourself when you see a reflection of yourself inside something ultimately unrelated to you in the face of negativity. I hope that big sentence made sense..
I believe in the good inside of you, and I hope you become a master at cultivating it.
Cheers
FuwaFuwaBlogger
Hello everyone. I'm sorry that I didn't post yesterday. I have been focusing on my mental health, and ultimately I believe it's healthier for me to blog whenever I feel like it, not as a mandatory task for me to do everyday. College is also starting soon for me, so it may be impossible for me to keep up with the blog posts.
I also lost motivation to watch Lucky Star as well, which sucks, because I had a surprise for all of you readers - a closet cosplay of Kagami, and a face reveal. Here's the edits I made of my cosplay, I do hope that you'll like them.
Thank you all for continuing to support me, despite my inconsistency. m(__)m
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We've made it to the 10th entry, yay. I feel under the weather, emotionally today so I can't say much. I missed watching a episode of Lucky Star yesterday, so I'll have to watch 2 today.
Good morning everyone.. It’s 4 in the morning as I’m writing this. For some reason, my body believed that this was more than enough rest for me.
This song has been on my mind for some time. I haven’t listened to this in actual years.
I always felt strongly that this was the best anime opening that I’ve ever heard, next to Evangelion and Haruhi Suzumiya songs.
I never really finished the anime because I thought it was kind of inappropriate and weird.. But I barely remember what happened in the first episode, so maybe it’s due for a re-watch.
Listening to the J-Pop I used to listen to as a child makes me feel a bit melancholy, probably because my life has changed drastically from twist after twist, and maybe makes me wish that I was younger, even though I’m only nineteen right now..
I feel really tired and weak. I might take a break from being active on here, but let's see if I manage to feel any better tomorrow.
Hello!
My glasses came early in the mail today.
Here’s how they look! ヽ(´ー｀)ﾉ
I really like them. I feel like they make me look a bit intimidating, but it certainly improved my ease of life more than me constantly leaning forward to use my laptop or do much of anything, it was very difficult to study Japanese in my physical notebooks.
I am personally impressed by the progress I made on my site without my glasses. I guess I’m unstoppable, better call me Nessie Unstoppable, haha.
Today is yet a busy day. I’m trying to watch more episodes of Lucky Star for my review (as mentioned on my PikiDiary) so you all can see the surprise I prepared for you all on there…! I also have to review the rest of my CD collection, and make a working and accessible webpage for Tsukasa Aotsuki. I’m a busy bee..
I cannot fall asleep, I am really hyperactive right now, so I chose to make a playlist for this website. Feel free to listen to it as you browse~ ☆
Thanks for reading!
Nessie (FuwaFuwaBlogger)
O-M-G guys this is my very first vent post on my blog.. Be nice, oki?
For some reason, I’ve been feeling grey and depressed since yesterday. Someone told me that, even if I think that something will make me happy, it doesn’t mean it’s guaranteed to. It’s true. I felt that way about my high school, that seemed like the ideal environment for me, but instead, mostly due to overbearing parents, I spent a lot of time alone, wishing someone would talk to me or acknowledge me as a friend rather than just a classmate or student. That actually happened once, but then that person ceased to exist. They deleted their social medias and I never saw them again during my time at that school. I couldn’t even tell you if they were a lowerclassman or an upperclassman.
I’m listening to my venting playlist to cope. Let me know if I should share it here.
Maybe it’s outdated and I should re-make my venting playlist, but the majority of the songs still resonate with me. It’s just that, it brings me back to the past, back when I loved F×××, when Evangelion was metaphorically embracing my lonely soul, and other events.
You see, I was also gravitating to anime like School Days, which led me to draw Tsukasa in an art style that references School Days for the most part (especially in the eyes). I wanted to create something that was relevant to my present, yet had a fitting escapism element.
I hope my wordiness makes sense.
There was one artist in particular that I resonated with in my vent playlist. I tried to confide in a friend about my feelings, and they intentionally misconstrued it to others and made other people believe their lies about me. If there’s anything I’d internalized recently, it’s to let people be wrong about you. The ones worth keeping around are the ones who would search for a correction, whether that’s subconscious or not.
I have honestly been avoiding that artist until I encountered it on my playlist on shuffle, and it felt really cathartic and relieving to listen to. Every beat felt like it understood and saw my complicated feelings.
I will probably listen to more of their music in the near future.
Tsukasa was a PNGTuber concept I invented earlier this year. I’m proud to say that after a while of trying to find myself, I feel like my confidence has heightened enough to talk about Heisei Retro topics as myself, and not behind an avatar. I was considering using Tsukasa as a mascot for FuwaFuwaBlogging, as she would fit right in with her dark-blue hair, and the second layout for FuwaFuwaBlogging.
I hope you will enjoy her presence here on my website.
Thank you for your support so far!
Nessie (FuwaFuwaBlogger)
Howdy everyone. I just had some taco bell. Yay~
The smell of the shrink wrap around my lemonade somehow reminded me of the smell of the shrink wrap around my friend's mother's cooking for me. She thought of me because my mother was always busy working and couldn't cook meals for me all the time, especially lunches.
I am grateful for that time in my life. I actually saw her at the glasses store the other day.
» More information about my glasses to be added soon. «
I got silly and made a new icon for myself. I have nothing against picrews, like the ones I was using before. It's just that, I wanna add a new personal touch to my website! :3
I worked really hard and made a secondary layout to my website, just for a fun experiment honestly..
I also made my very first shrine page for one of my favorite Idolm@ster characters, Eri Mizutani!
LINKS TO THESE PAGES COMING SOON.
I know this was rather short, but I do hope that you enjoyed reading this.
From, FuwaFuwaBlogger
A model for the aesthetic, Sandy. She is wearing a Boho bracelet and a simplified Twee-kei dress, while holding a Kånken Laptop 17".
Signature colors: Lime green; Dark green, Light blue, White, Grey, Brown, Salmon Pink, Light Orange
A Freezepop concert.
HIYA EVERYBUNNY~☆!
W-Woah, I’m a bit hyper right now as I just had a mocha frappe for breakfast, along with some chicken nuggets (the autistic national meal)...but I’m burning this energy up quite efficiently!
Last night, I was able to join Pikidiary sometime as I was watching Yumeiro Patissiere. Feel free to check out my posts on there and maybe follow me? 🥺👉👈
(Refresh to return to my blog.)
I was encouraged by my friend, Pudding-chan (one day I will link back to their website..) to share with you all my brand-new aesthetic: Twee Scene!
I think I will update this blog column with information about this aesthetic.. looks at watch right about now! -w-)
Enjoy reading it!
FuwaFuwaBlogger
Hi.
こんにちは。
I watched the entirety of Haruhi Suzumiya, including the movie. I promptly reviewed it in my “My TV reviews” section. It was about time that I finally reviewed some anime here..
あたしは「涼宮ハルヒ」の全話を、映画も見ます全て観ました。私は直ぐさますに「My TV Reviews」セクションでそれをレビューしました。切め著すでアニメのレビューを。
I also had a poke bowl for breakfast/lunch. It took me a few minutes to realize the salmon cubes were raw, but the spicy mayo made up for it.
私は食べますポーケボウル為に朝ごはんと昼食。サーモンが生だったことに気づいたが、スパイシーマヨネーズが私を慰めてくれた。
I made a few Picrews yesterday.
昨日、いくつかのPicrewsを作成しました。
Cute, right? 🙂
かわいいでしょ？
I have some free time now, so I thought I could update this.
今、少し時間が空いたので、これを更新しようと思いました。
Thanks for reading..!
どうも。
FuwaFuwaBlogger
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Phew. Hi everyone. I am writing this at 23:53 right now so I don't have a lot of time to describe just everything I did today, but that's really okay. I watched a lot of Haruhi Suzumiya today. I have one more episode to go!! GAAA-
I have been watching all of it because I've been meaning to finish it all for a while. Please enjoy my future ramblings on anime..!
Ok I have to go finish this final episode.
See you later!
FuwaFuwaBlogger
It’s commonly said that everything that you post on the internet lasts forever. A lot of people propose this semi-true fact typically to people who are new to the internet, who just received their first smartphone, tablet or computer for some sort of special occasion as a con rather than how we can possibly benefit from it.
As we’ve noticed over the years, the internet never stays the same, it is rapidly changing and updating, with different layouts, customization options and people in charge of the various “front pages of the internet”. It’s best to enjoy and immerse yourself in things and events that excite you as much as possible, even with something so static as vast customization via HTML and CSS or a new upload from your favorite Youtuber. Anyone has the ability to create as long as they also have the ability to think, regardless if they can think for themselves or not.
Recently, as for the past year or so now, for some reason I have been seeing general social media in a positive light. I try to take advantage of customizing these algorithms on sites like TikTok and Instagram to see creators whose work and content actually align with me as a person: their interests, hobbies and other past-times, not necessarily the individual themselves. I’m sure this exact line of thinking has encouraged and inspired me to write a blogpost like this.
Document your life.
As netizens, we should take advantage of the fact that we have something that can make our memories everlasting, but it seems the vast majority of us are becoming depressed and hurt by this fact, honestly. You could even say that so many people are already doing this by sharing “the highlight reel of their lives” on Instagram but for whatever reason, words like that don’t really resonate with me. I don’t believe that people are sharing their highlight reel of their life online, it’s more like they are sharing what they are willing to be immortalized, whenever they realize that or not. It’s not the social media websites’ fault that you somewhat lack some self awareness before sharing whatever it is that may lead to a mental meltdown sometime later.
Sorry if that was a little harsh, but try to think of your relationship with the internet and you like this: every post is a click on a camera. The text is the caption, and the subject of the image is whatever that captivates your heart and mind in that very moment. It’s going to be frozen in time, with possible minor revisions in the future. Obviously a physical camera and photo, and online posts have two different senses of input, but I hope that analogy makes sense. Think about the scenarios where you would use a camera and why. You should also investigate why inside you would share something online before hitting “post”. Yes, I know that posting online is much more exciting and fun when you submit a half-thought, but for the sake of your future, and possibly others who look up to you, just think twice.
I don’t want to bore you by exploring this idea any further, but another aspect that I want to touch upon before you go on documenting various aspects of your life, is your comfort zone vs. making yourself uncomfortable.
If you already have a niche that you’re comfortable with online, then that’s great. It’s easy to want to imitate others who are possibly being themselves and receiving traction for it, but like I said, just think twice. You really need to take into account your personal reservations and things you like to do that make you happy, and accept that you will be inevitably associated with whatever you share online, especially if your face is revealed.
Maybe you could try writing a list of things that you are comfortable immortalizing, and things you are also comfortable forgetting before really establishing an online place for yourself. However, there’s a lot more risks of posting yourselves online now than in the past 10 years, like with non-consentual AI software that can animate you doing anything without your knowledge most of the time that someone had done such a thing.
Before becoming the online superstar that you want to be, you have to remember your boundaries first and affirm them with each post and memory you make, so that not only your family and friends can look back fondly, but so you can, too.
I hope this blogpost was inspiring or useful in some way.
Thank you for reading.
FuwaFuwaBlogger
Tag: Self-care
Hi everyone.
I’ve been online for quite a while, and oftentimes, I see the word “gatekeeping” mentioned in various social media sites. I wonder, what do they mean by that?
Well, the basic definition of “gatekeeping” means “the activity of controlling, and usually limiting, general access to something”. When it’s used in a fandom space, it typically refers to an individual who withholds information from other fans, such as music information, character information, merchandise, or anything related to the source media. You often see this word thrown around in internet arguments when some people get upset that a mainstream social media website or app such as “TikTok” makes their sentimental song a “trending sound” or something similar. People often get called ‘Gatekeepers' for feeling upset that their favorite song was used by people that they assume know nothing about it, or have no prior connection to it.
In my personal opinion, these people’s feelings are.. valid ?! (crowd gasp)
Even though publicly released art is expected to be consumed by the world, rather in private or openly, it’s fairly easy and simple to become attached to a song you end up really liking, or any media for that matter. You start to value that connection highly and you want to protect it from any other people, any “outsiders”, who might taint your memories with the song or media that you hold so closely to their heart, and you want to keep your memories of the song or media as pure as you possibly can. This beautiful song, or character that somehow magically understands how you feel deep down. This also manifests in a bunch of other different ways such as disliking how other people portray their favorite fictional character, and maybe strongly believing in one-dimensional ways this character can be perceived as. There can be a thousand other instances and examples I can talk about but I hope these few examples can help you understand what I’m trying to say.
What can make others feel like these individuals’ feelings are invalid is how they react to it. It’s easy to just leave a frustrated comment on a trending video using the audio in a “inaccurate way” (like using a intense love song for a completely unrelated meme video, even making fun of the song) or someone complaining about how much this song is being used without realizing the history of the song you know so much about, but it still really is okay to feel strongly about this. Especially if that song has strong memories interwoven for you. What’s not okay is possibly harassing or trying to hurt others for simply trying to inform people about things that you’re trying to keep your little secret. If it’s openly out there, chances are it can garner a following eventually, or a derivative of it. It’s a trait of existence that a lot more people need to accept, but I understand the frustration, I really do as someone who’s been in their fair share of niche fandoms that I will ironically not name.
Okay, let’s go eat sushi or something..
Howdy.
For breakfast, I had stew chicken and vegetable lo main.
The day is only beginning, but I have lots of plans, like continuing to archive my old blog. I will delete my earlier blog soon.
Yesterday, I made a few more Picmix!
Even one of the pictures that I use to scare my online friends!
Teehee ~
A ancient memory awoken within me..
Pokemon Trozei. I had saw this commercial as a little girl somewhere online.
The little theme song for this video game always calms me down and reminds me of a simpler time..
I should get this game.
Also, when I was younger, I used to make fake broadcasts and put my favorite commercials in them.
I should do that again sometime (`･ω･´)
Thank you for reading this!
Best regards, FuwaFuwaBlogger
Sometime ago, in the land of no-one-really-cares, Google had implemented Gemini (which is AI) into Blogger. Even though it is important to me, even more than I may realize, I perceive it as no one really caring because I rarely see anyone talk about avidly using Blogger, especially in 2020-2023 when I was using it the most. I have met one Blogger fairly recently who used Google's platform, and that was nice to see, so I helped them understand how to use it a bit more.
I was in high school, ages 15-18 during the years 2020-2023. I mainly had one blog, moki-blog. That username may or may not ring a few bells to some readers..
I would write about basically anything I was really passionate about, like rhythm games, VOCALOID (I wrote about how I sobbed while listening to the orchestra live concert album for 2020, and my friends at the time read it all, lol.), Animal Crossing and more. I was inspired by several bloggers, one most notable to me is Crystal Dreams. I hope Jennifer, the author of that blog, never loses her passion to blog and share her interests with the world.
I was also in a writing program in my high school at the time, so I was really preoccupied. It was difficult to engage in the program due to each meeting having to be online, thanks to COVID at the time..
I do remember watching Haruhi Suzumiya for the very first time in Summer of 2020. It's a bittersweet memory for me, for a lot of reasons. I invited my partner at the time to watch it with me but things slowed down during the Endless Eight. I think personally, I'm going to do a long re-watch entirely by myself, and maybe write an anime review here. Please stay tuned for that idea..!!
Even before Moki, I had an Animal Jam blog when I was younger. I was really into collecting beta and rare items. I desperately wanted a headdress in the game as well. The most affordable and common one was the purple and white one. Fortunately, I can still sign in, and yes, I still own the majority of my beta items, and no, I still haven't received a headdress.. :c
Very recently, I had started another Blogger..blog this year before they rolled out Gemini onto the platform. This was before I had the ability to code. I am grateful that I was able to learn HTML and CSS.
If there's anything I can wish for.. it's that, I wish I realized sooner as a teenager that all I really needed was myself. That was just difficult to realize because I was trapped in many codependent situations throughout the cusp of my teenage years and it was difficult to continuously make long-term good decisions. It was also difficult to truly realize that, but I come to terms of internalizing and affirming that emotional truth more and more as time moves on.
I am truly grateful for Blogger and all the times I spent writing hours and hours, sharing my thoughts to the internet and anyone kind enough to stumble upon my posts. I feel appreciative to the team and overall, the individual who believed that inventing Blogger would be a good idea. Thank you for 26 years of fun memories, and thank you for reading this.
Best regards, FuwaFuwaBlogger
(*´∇｀)ﾉ♡
Hello to everyone reading this! My friend, Pudding-chan (they are a actual person, not just a nice plate of flan sitting next to me as I'm writing this!) and I had came up with a idea to write a blog entry at least once per day to make it to the 365 day mark! You would have around the same amount of blogposts to last a typical year!
Are you excited? Because I am. Let's get the party started!!
Before all of you fellow Zojirushi fans get disappointed, I will not be talking about my Zojirushi today because I decided to only use it when I'm outside. The idea of drinking ice cold honey green tea seems nice, doesn't it? ☺️
Now, for breakfast, I had oxtail pizza all to myself ヽ(´ー｀)ﾉ
As I ate, I was able to create even more Picmix.
Here's one of Ai Kago from Hello! Project.
I am working on archiving my previous blog, on Blogger to this website as well, ever since Blogger had intergrated AI.
Today is quite the busy day..
Thanks for reading this!
Love, FuwaFuwaBlogger
Howdy.
ちわっす。
I was able to create my very first Picmix of myself.
私の生み出すPicmixができます。
What do you think?
ほんとうですか？
I was also able to take my Zojirushi out today for errands!
今日は、あたしのZojirushiも用足します！
I originally had made iced green tea, but the tea managed to melt into a warm form!
初めのうちはあたしの水出し緑茶。でも、温いにお茶変わました！
I was able to buy cold green tea with honey from the convenience store. It was an enjoyable experience.
あたしで買うから冷たい緑茶蜂蜜共にコンビニ。体験は楽しいです。
Thank you for reading this.
どうも。
Love, FuwaFuwaBlogger
かしこ、ふわふわBlogger
This evening, my Zojirushi came into the mail today. I was pulled in by its lighthearted fun design, and I loved the subtle messaging of this one.
I promptly opened the package and was surprised with 90% japanese packaging all around the box - even the instructions were in japanese (゜ロ゜)
Which confused me because a lot of people in the reviews had received English manuals..
Anyways, I was impacted by the great quality of the bottle.
I hope to spend great adventures with this mug soon~ (0u0)~☆